The holidays are my favorite time of year ! The cooler weather , the colors of fall , and the family gatherings for Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner . This year will be different and I am not quite sure how to handle it yet . We will still celebrate as we always have with one exception , we are missing one of own , Jake . I am that mom that still has pumpkins for everyone to carve regardless of age and I am not beyond threatening you with santa clause not coming . So this year we will have one uncarved pumpkin and for Thanksgiving and Christmas I will leave a empty chair out because I know he will be with us . I will still hang his stocking alongside ours and his christmas ornament on the tree . I will leave his ugly christmas sweater on his chair and regret that he isn’t in our pictures . He is always in charge of making the rotel dip for family dinners so I will take that chore back from him and it will always be made . Jakes birthday is coming soon and in our family it is always the person whos birthday it is choice for birthday dinner . He usually asks for ribs so we will smoke a big rack and chow down ! Like I said before I am not sure how I will handle it being our first time without him but I will get through it and learn how to do it next year and every year after that. It is a huge mountain to climb but I can guarantee we won’t be sitting at the bottom , we will overcome it and celebrate victory !! I hope everyone has a great holiday season and to those of you who will also have an empty chair this year my heart goes out to you .